Sunday, July 10, 2005

Moment By Moment Till Forever Passes By

I wonder if God ever asked anyone to commit to Him forever? I wonder if I'm even capable of it. Most of us can't commit for a single day. And even if I commit in all sincerety to live the next week for God and God alone, what is the vaule of that promise? What is the value of intentions? Easily made, easily broken, sometimes impossible to keep. The truth is, I have trouble giving Him this moment, never mind promising to return to Him future moments that He hasn't even given me yet.



But I think about it a lot. What if God wants me to stay single? Could I do it? What if He wants me to continue this nomadic existence for the rest of my life? Would He really make me do that? What if I'm supposed to lose my job tomorrow? Sure it maybe for the best ultimately, but I like having money to go out with my friends. And on and on and on.



It's called borrowing trouble. I expect myself to be able, right now, to accept all of the worst possible things that could happen - things that probably never will happen and couldn't possibly all happen - because that's want God says is best. I'm mentally preparing myself for a lifetime of the same series of disasters I've experienced over the past few years. No, for the rest of my life to be a series of sacrifices in the name of God.



Maybe that's what it'll be like. Maybe it won't. It scares me, no question, but at some point (and i think this is that point) I have to recognize that all the worrying I've done in the past has been no help in dealing with the present. The only thing that helps me in the present is God. Which means that worrying today is useless, because only God will be able to help me tomorrow.



I can't decide to follow Him tomorrow. I can only ask myself if I'm truly following Him today.

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Finish This Sentence

A Samaritan Is . . .



. . . Good, right?



Wrong. In the eyes of his contemporaries, a samaritan was the mongrel half-breed of jews and non-jews. They were perceived as uneducated, ill-mannered, irreligious and just a tad unholy. They were what happened when God's Chosen people went bad.



But after two thousand years of repeating the same story over and over, you say "Samaritan" and I say "Good." It's all we know. The only samaritan you ever hear about was good, ergo all samaritans are good.



Be careful what stories you carry - they might be the only truth that gets heard.

Monday, July 04, 2005

Stealth Dating

Transparency:

the willingness to live one's life as an open book.

Stealth Dating:

the refusal to be transparent about one's romantic entanglements.



I know, you really, really like this guy. You think it could be something special. And you certainly don't want to ruin it by getting the whole community involved. And what if you make a mistake, cross a line prematurely, fail or commit some major sin - you're supposed to be setting an example!



Sorry, but no. You are setting an example - with your whole life, not just the easy or obvious parts. In moments your not even aware of, with people you may only speak with a handful of times, you are showing them what christianity looks like in this culture. You're showing them how a christian woman handles her job, her friends, her family and her education. You're setting a bar in speech, behavior, dress and attitude.



And by building a hedge around this aspect of your life you are living a lie. You're choosing to show only a part of the picture.



Single women all feel lonely at one time or another - but not you. You are the image of Contented Singleness - an image based on a lie that presents an impossible standard. You never seem to be lonely, so why should they?



Dating women are wrestling with issues that pop up in all relationships. How much time should we spend together? How far can we go physically? How do we behave in groups? How do we develope a mutual spiritual life? How are you helping them, exactly?



You gave God your whole life, remember? Not just the aspects you were comfortable displaying. If you're in this to find your comfort zone and set up shop, you picked the wrong religion. Every moment of every day of your life is an example to some one. Deal with it.